I'm still really fucking sad and still don't know what to do. I can't really talk to anyone about this. I feel really alone. I'm going to see 2 counselors within as many weeks but I still don't have anyone to share this shit with. Not really an online conversation kind of guy. More of an in person kind of guy, but I need time to actually get my shit out. I want to be selfish and just talk about me. Guess I gotta pay for that. Wish that the appointments weren't so far out. Shit in a shoe, right?